A rainy, cold and gloomy day!
plans of going to watch and hear carols sung seem to go out the window.
my close pal is warded because she had a stone in her kidney! gosh!! a 20yr old with a stone in her kidney! what is this world coming to!
i suppose the weather is to blame for me being in a gloomy mood. i am seeing all the negative aspects of life right now...and it is not healthy!!
getting a chance to go to...or more specifically migrate to the states is what many people want these days... my family however were never like that. my parents and i like the simple life we lead here in our mother land. my sisters are not that quiet and long for adventure.
i am experiencing a taste of adventure in Singapore where i am supposing to be doing something i love. well i know studying abroad is NOT what it is all hyped to be...at least for a person like me.
i love my family and blossom when i am surrounded by people i love. living alone there is not my ideal place of growth. i am not a party person and prefer a good book or a quiet stroll to going around and spending time supposedly to have fun. for a person like that Singapore holds nothing much and i find in claustrophobic!
long distance relationships are not that great either although i must say my baby has been the best! he is so understanding about these things that it hurts me more as i am the reason we are apart.
i was looking forward to the end of it and now... sigh...
looks like i might go to America as soon as i am done in Singapore!
everyone says how great it is! how it is such a great chance...well right now my heart is sinking at the prospect...
it anyway wont be the entire family. my elder sister is not eligible as she is over 21. this means my dad will have to stay back and then i know my mom cant stay away for long either...
so again i am stuck away at another land away from those i love... at least i have my younger sister. i am glad at least she doesn't have to go alone.
we cannot come often as i used to as the tickets are so expensive! so the distance becomes wider and longer...
i feel like i am falling into a pit... dark and cold as the rain outside my window...
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