poetic thoughts...

some poetry like thought i had jotted down on paper...

The day before i came back to Singapore:

My heart is sinking
I feel empty and numb
the end of my lips facing down.
life passes and i move with it
with a sense of necessity than want.

hollow and deep
echoing made easy
life seems futile and empty
life has become an empty shell, humming the sea.


last Friday at the girls changing room:

Here i sit on a bench
plumbing in front of me
towels on the side
curled up and alone
listening to the distant music
class being taken by my comrades

scribbling on my book
i look up to see me...
brows, lips drooping in loneliness.

unable to stop the wetting of my cheeks
i do not know what has gone wrong...
i was such a cheery girl,
always positive and bright
but now, i only see the rain clouds in the sky.

weight issues....

scary... i feel like im losing weight! and funny as this is to most people it is NOT something to rejoice over! i am a person who never really realised if i put on or not..i was always blessed to have a slender figure and not have to think twice but what i eat or do. but now... im worrying!! i feel like im shrinking! my muscles are not as big as they were..and as a full time dancer that is saying something!

vitamins..here i come!!

and so i am back to the drawing board. been 2 weeks. 2 terrible weeks!!
missing home was just a small part of the emotional breakdowns i was suffering from for the past days... it has been a living hell! the day i was leaving the migrating thing was emphasised with a fight between me n my baby bout trust issue... n then school was really bad in the start with Albert making me his pin cushion. then there is the graduation show where i still don't have a role....sigh..just hell!!

but it is then that you realise that there are so many people who love you and who are always there for you!