have you ever been surrounded by tons of people and yet felt lonely? out of place? just plain odd?
i feel like that when i go for my choir practices. these girls are a mixture of ages, careers, personalities and social backgrounds. we are brought together by a tie of blood through school and the love for music.
however i find that it has become a group of selfish, proud, arrogant and head strong bunch (myself included) due to the praises and awards that they have been blessed to gain. as individuals most of them are lovely people who really are in a class of their own but as soon as they are a part of this group....well... things change and so do people.
there was a time when i felt honoured and humbled to be among this crowd and do what we did with praise to God. now i find myself frustrated and irritated every time i go for practices.
as i said we are a mixture of girls. some are bankers, journalists, university students majoring in architecture, arts, technology, management, dance (which is me!) ad even radio personalities. just like this diversity in what we specialise, it obviously is also so in our singing capabilities. some have strong voices others soft. some have a wonderful sense of pitch while others are so-so. some have tons of confidence and others will want to hide behind someone or prefer not to be heard (like me). we can all sing, but our capabilities and vary.
so when working in a group are we not supposed to give and take and help each other out? shouldn't those with powerful voices, wonderful pitch and oozing confidence be in the thicket of those who are not so and be the pillar? or are they supposed to group themselves into one group and leave those timid and helpless choristers flailing in deep waters? why cant those who are capable to hold the fortress by themselves split up to help hold the others? why do they have to be in the high tower alone?
instead of giving support they take away the bit of confidence these girls have in them. they take away their want to be a part of this group. they are the lords and ladies and sometimes their heads are too high to see whats happening...and when what they want is not accomplished, 'off with the heads' with criticisms and rolling of eyes and sharpness of tongue. what a nightmare! i m so glad that at least i will be able to leave soon... or that too would have caused a scandal! there is no bondage of any kind except the unwritten one which keeps you tied tighter than any other legal one. but some issues just cannot help but sever this bond...like us migrating! :)...but this kind of separation, as it is unavoidable, can be done peacefully and with even good wishes of luck...
i feel like that when i go for my choir practices. these girls are a mixture of ages, careers, personalities and social backgrounds. we are brought together by a tie of blood through school and the love for music.
however i find that it has become a group of selfish, proud, arrogant and head strong bunch (myself included) due to the praises and awards that they have been blessed to gain. as individuals most of them are lovely people who really are in a class of their own but as soon as they are a part of this group....well... things change and so do people.
there was a time when i felt honoured and humbled to be among this crowd and do what we did with praise to God. now i find myself frustrated and irritated every time i go for practices.
as i said we are a mixture of girls. some are bankers, journalists, university students majoring in architecture, arts, technology, management, dance (which is me!) ad even radio personalities. just like this diversity in what we specialise, it obviously is also so in our singing capabilities. some have strong voices others soft. some have a wonderful sense of pitch while others are so-so. some have tons of confidence and others will want to hide behind someone or prefer not to be heard (like me). we can all sing, but our capabilities and vary.
so when working in a group are we not supposed to give and take and help each other out? shouldn't those with powerful voices, wonderful pitch and oozing confidence be in the thicket of those who are not so and be the pillar? or are they supposed to group themselves into one group and leave those timid and helpless choristers flailing in deep waters? why cant those who are capable to hold the fortress by themselves split up to help hold the others? why do they have to be in the high tower alone?
instead of giving support they take away the bit of confidence these girls have in them. they take away their want to be a part of this group. they are the lords and ladies and sometimes their heads are too high to see whats happening...and when what they want is not accomplished, 'off with the heads' with criticisms and rolling of eyes and sharpness of tongue. what a nightmare! i m so glad that at least i will be able to leave soon... or that too would have caused a scandal! there is no bondage of any kind except the unwritten one which keeps you tied tighter than any other legal one. but some issues just cannot help but sever this bond...like us migrating! :)...but this kind of separation, as it is unavoidable, can be done peacefully and with even good wishes of luck...
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